Showing posts with label opinion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label opinion. Show all posts

Thursday, April 9, 2009

alin?


Likas sa tao ang pagpili. Kasama na dito ang pamimili ng kung anumang higit na mas magaan o mas magbibigay saya o mapagkukunan ng lakas na mga bagay, lunan o tao, personal man na kilala o hindi.



Minsan sa buhay mo, hindi mo man gustuhin o kahit sabihin mo pa man na dahil matalino ka kung kaya’t hindi mo na alintana ang mga kaakibat na suliranin dala ng pamimili, natatapat ka sa pintuan ng mga pagkakataon at panahon na gaano man kahirap sa loob-loob mo o kasakit sa iyong natitirang ego, kailangan talagang mamili ka dahil yun at yun lang ang pinaka-una at pinaka epektibong paraan sa paglaya.



Minsan kahit simpleng tanong lang at siyempre simpleng sagot lang ang kailangan ay doon pa tayo nabobobo.



Alin ang mas masakit : ang magmahal ng taong alam mong may mahal na iba o ang umasang balang-araw, suntok man sa buwan tingnan, ay mamahalin ka rin nya? Di man sa paraang inaasahan at pinakaaasam mo, at least sa paraang alam at kaya lang ng inirog mo.



Alin ang mas matimbang: ang sabihing mahalaga ang isang tao sa’yo dahil yun ang tama o ang sabihing mahal mo ang isang tao dahil yun ang totoo?



Alin ang mas madali: ang mahalin ang taong mahal mo ngunit alam mong hindi ka mahal o ang taong hindi mo kayang mahalin ngunit mahal na mahal ka?



Alin ang mas may kabuluhan: ang kasalukuyang relasyon na umabot na ng halos limang taong puno ng away-bati at ng mga gabing ayaw kang patulugin dahil naninimbang ka kung mahal ka ba talaga nya tulad ng mga malamlam nyang mga pangako o ang masilakbong pag-ibig na tumubo lang sa talulot ng bulaklak ng bagong natagpuang pagkakaibigan?



Alin?

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

An Pagsurat



“Kinahanglan ko magsurat para makayakan.”


Sangtop ako hit kamatuoran nga dire sugad kasimple iton disiplina hiton pagsurat. Waray ako pormal nga pagturun-an hin pagsurat amu dire ako sigurado kun iton akon mga ginsurat, ginhuhuman pagsurat ngan iton akon mga igsusurat buwas magsusubay hiton mga displina ha pagsurat hiton mga kamag-araman.

Madali magsurat kun pagsurat la iton paghihimangrawan pero sayod ako nga an pagsurat hin mga barasahon ngan ideya nga magpapahimulos hin bag-o nga mga iristoryahun ngan mag-aabre hiton himuok nga hunahuna hiton kadam-an ngan magbibilin hin bag-o o kun dire man kakaiba nga panlantaw ha kinabuhi an mas makuri nga dapit han pagsurat.

Signgon pa han usa nga kamag-araman, kun diin nakikipagpuniti pa ako hit kalag hit iya libro agud mahuman ko na pagbasa ha ungara nga ha katapusan nga paypay niya, ugsa ko ipahuram liwat ha iba nga gingigidkan magsurat, iton pinaka makuri nga dapit hiton puniti hiton nagsusurat ngan hiton kagawasan hiton iya igsusurat amu an dapit kun diin nakaatubang ha iya nawong iton blanko nga busag na papel samtang naghuhulat masuratan hin kun anuman.

Ha sungpay pa nga kabahin, kun usa man nga puniti iton pagsurat, an pagdarag-an han nagsusurat dire ginsusukol ha kabug-usan han iya artikulo o siday o short story ngan kun anu ini kahusay ngan anu karasa kaunon iton kada linya hin ideya ini may-ada, lugod para hin sugad ha akon nga dire pa hamtong an kinaadman ngan nag-aambisyon pa la mag-surat, karuyag ko huna-hunaon nga an padarag-an hin usa nga mahusay nga sinurat ngan nagsusurat in ginsusukol tikang han mga kapait ngan katam-is han mga ideya nga sumulod ha iya huna-huna ngan dayon nag-aaragaway ha sulod han iya utok para asihon han nagsusurat agud amu an maging pangulo nga emosyon ha pagtikang han artikulo. Dinhi na nga dapit masulod an ikaduha nga pahutnga-ay hin kusog han nagsusurat ngan iya ginsusurat, amu nga an mga emosyon han kapait, katam-is, kahangit, kakuri, kalipay ngan kagawasan ngan kadaugan o kun an pagdurungan hini nga tanan man amu an tinikangan han pagsukol tubtob ha kun anuman iton masupsop nga ideya hiton magbabasa hini nga sinurat amu an suklanan.

Karuyag kun mag-aro hin pasaylo ha mga kamag-araman nga nagpukaw ha akon tikan ha akon himuok nga katurog ngan padayon nga nagiging surok hit akon ambisyon kun dire ko maakos tagan hin hustisya ini nga akon mga ungara, sugad kan Prof. Merlie Alunan, usa nga bag-o nga crush ko ha UPVTC, kan Voltaire Oyzon nga nagbilin ha akon hin girhang ha bitiis ngan ha bayhon hadto pa tikan han akon mabasahan an iya *siday ha UP Vista ngan kan Makabenta, author hin usa ka diksyunaryo nga Waray, kun diin naghatag ha akon hin ideya nga marisyo, kumplikado ngan makaruruyag igsurusalakot iton diyalekto nga Waraynon.

Dire ako hanas magsurat. Pero karuyag ko magsurat kay karuyag ko magyakan.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Writers' Stigma



Most of those in the know call it writer’s stigma. It is when the writer hibernates on his penchant towards writing. It is the sudden stagnation of a writer about scrutinizing the creative side of every situation and the sloth-like ceasing from collecting concrete ideas from both the simplest of things to the myriad of many other thingamajigs yet unexplained by the naked brain.
I cannot call myself a writer per se so that when I stagnated from scribbling ambitious words in this blog spot since I impulsively created this a year ago, I cannot be accused of a writer’s stigma. Instead, I would prefer to call myself a rebel who chose to shy myself away from the maddened crowd so that I may be able to search my thoughts well and good. But let me just put it on the record that when I hibernated for quite sometime, I was out in the killing field. It was a tumultuous battle fighting my own demons. I fought a good fight.


But what makes a prolific writer and effective writing come into unison? Is it purely about narrating into beautiful words all the fancies of this life, both the good and the ugly? Is it taking into account all the misadventures of man and making the record indelible enough so that all information is understood and learned by the readers? Is it about looming ideas carefully so that it ends up into an intricate piece of cloth of lofty-minded essay? I remember a senior communication arts student from UP Tacloban Campus during the event of their short film festival having been awarded as best director aptly said that once the article, essay, poem or a short film is out in the open ready to be devoured by the public, the author loses control over his piece of art. No matter how wonderful it was written, it is inevitable that it will be perceived differently by the audience. Thus lies the responsibility of understanding the essence of the artwork in the hands of the beholder, or the readers for that matter. In the shortcomings of the audience, any piece of art suffers.

It also speaks the same about this page. While I am caught in the limbo of issues about being guilty of a writer’s dilemma and the indecisiveness whether I keep this page limited to my personal journal of misadventures, demons may care, or must I keep this simply as a photo blog where literary bouts are supported with relevant, if not journalistic photos at that, I remain steadfast with my Zafra-ish obligation of being accountable with my storytelling.



I’m not a prolific writer. Or at least, I cannot qualify to be hailed like one just yet. Neither am I your typical yuppy photo blogger. I am not even close to being an online poet con lensman. But in the trials of times when one must rise up from his sloth and defy the odds against those who have slapped the cheek of the weak or in the event that tact is more powerful than truth but prudence argues with sobriety, then I can let loose of my own leash so that I become, nonetheless, the rebel that I am.



Tuesday, May 6, 2008

"From The Apple Of Your Eyes"


My family moved from the country to seek better fortune in the city back in 1985. I was 5 years old then. And until now, it is still customary for my family to watch the Pintados Festival Parade during the city fiesta come end of June. Though in my growing up years, I have chosen a rather boisterous and free – spirited company to watch the parade with now that I am old enough to verbalize my choices with friends, issues to argue about and even acting out my very personal endeavors. Just like my fancied adolescent years in the city, the Pintados Festival would always showcase the best that the region could offer championing the historic and colorful culture and its humble beginnings. It keeps getting grandiose and much more festive every year, thus, tourists both foreign and local alike would grace the festival with beautiful words of review to bring home.

Indelible sights and sounds had been documented to my memory as to how the slow but precise paces of development had changed the city by the bay through the years. Tacloban does not tail behind the queue of national candidates for urban progress. And the leaders who sat the local government seats could only profess to have done so much good for the city and for its people caught in the limbo called urban poor.

There used to be a slum community surrounding DYVL radio station called Rimas Colon. I had elementary grade classmates who used to live there. And following the layman’s definition of a slum area as a place of none- permanent settlers with no valid address, let alone a sane system of human waste disposal then at least I will not be vindicated of being unpragmatic about my choices of words. I could very well describe a slum area coz I used to live in one too. And there was also a Muslim mosque amidst the small houses and humbled shanties where our Muslim brothers, who have settled to Tacloban City, worship their own divinity. Perhaps, just like my family, they also sought for a better life in the city.

Exactly two years ago, that area was cleared out to make way for an amusement venue for the local folks. And as far as the comprehensive plans of the city is concerned, a baywalk park will be built along the serene Cancabato bay line in such a way that a walk from Balyuan Tower, now towerless, to the recently opened Tacloban Convention Center will become a leisurely saunter. Only the radio station remained when the families were moved to a resettlement area at the city outskirts.

The erstwhile mayoral administration of Bejo Romualdez was bombarded with repercussions from the local media men and self-confessed political analysts (READ: mga paragsuson) alike before there was a clean and spacious bus terminal along Maharlika Highway and an efficient shuttle service from the terminal to the heart of the city courtesy of these neon green multicabs ; a two- storey public market reviewed as less – unhygienic, at least, compared to the former; a beautified Rizal Park and the proud Tacloban Convention Center, a first of its kind in the city and will soon become a landmark in the region. In its effect, new establishments and commercial buildings started to mushroom. The thrive of the student populace from all over the region to the city colleges and universities became evident. The same administration saw the realization of a privatized solid waste management and the more systematic electric cooperative thus resulted to well- lit streets, highways and main thoroughfares secured from unwanted menace. The community folks also became up and about with the community- based medical, dental and social services in a mobile operation called barangayan and still many other city ordinances that aimed to promote the welfare of the happy Taclobanons.

During this year’s festival parade, floats of private establishments and some government offices also joined the busy streets merrymaking. The FM Romualdez convoy of high-end cars and buses, while the infamous former campaign jingle was playing in the air, were donned in colorful tarpaulins bearing the Congressman’s wide-smiled face greeting “Happy Fiesta Taclobanon… from the apple of your eyes, Cong. FM Romualdez and Family.” The convoy drew more attention as the hired men threw away Fuji apples to the parade spectators. But of course, who would not be delighted to such unique freebies. It was a rather much favored gimmick from the usual flyers and leaflets and or candies thrown away from the float as goodies during the parade. Well, sardines are also a treat in the previous years.

Far from the maddening crowd, I couldn’t help but notice the group of people busily and frantically following the solon’s float for the closer chance of catching the apples it almost resembled that of the zealots during the Feast of the Black Nazarene. Among them was this forty-something man whom I particularly kept my fancy with. His worn-out slippers revealed his cracked and calloused heels that might have told me his meager job requires rigorous walking every single day. He wore a stained white sando and a pair of faded corduroy pants and a knap-sack in his back bulging with apples he had literally won in the catching match over the others. His wrists were adorned with colored rubber bracelets, another fad freebies given during the previous election campaign. Etched in the rubber bracelets were names of now elected senators and a certain partylist. He kept a perfect proximity from the float like a hungry hound, toungue- out panting, waiting for a tender piece of meat.

Such sarcasm. It tore my idealistic heart to see the common tao, whose mandate to elect his leaders to the highest form of government is as sacred as the Constitution, begged for apples like alms and cursed the man atop the float every time an apple failed the grip of his soiled sweaty hands. Such irony knowing the fact that the sanctity of one man’s vote was peddled for 200 Php one fateful night before the election day. Likened to a cautious thief through the night, he waited for midnight to fall and thus received the cold cash discreetly from the disclosed precinct leaders of the Apple Man and other characters of Ninja Turtles and even from members of the uncanny X-men. Rates are varied depending on the source. But I was inclined to believe then that rates were pre-determined to equate the amount of his basic human right. I cried in silence.

I abhorred the idea as to how the men atop the float played sarcastically with the crowds’ taking chances with the imported fruit. Taclobanons do not grow apple trees in their backyards, and the fact that money is hard to come by these days, why would they not just grab their chances right there and then.

To many, it was part of the merrymaking because it was the city fiesta after all. To some idealistic few, it was a mockery full of taunting to the preceding floats of the Department of Tourism promoting the rich and unique culture of the region, including the ways of its diversified people, whether they had apples on their hands or none. To that man of my fancy, whose unwavering gusto was remarkable, his story was one I knew of so well.

Perhaps, he had 12 children and the apples in his swollen bag would not suffice just yet so that he was following the mob faithfully for more. Perhaps, it was his self-proclaimed day-off from his blue collared job and took full advantage of the idea of selling the catch for his family’s meal for the day. Perhaps, it was his own understanding of the Romualdezes gratefulness for having been elected to the office again, because he was one of those who voted for them. Or perhaps, there were unfathomed reasons I for one may never fully understand.

If that picture depicted a thousand of stories, then here is one: that man who sold his vote obliviously is the same man who owned the knapsack full of apples. Such a preposterous fate for a man who had the power to select his leaders he could have hoped for to bring him to a productive society.

If the government would only be truly sincere about eradicating poverty and carrying out instead the people’s best interest, then perhaps no ethnic minorities would settle from city to city to seek for a pasture that rightfully belongs to them. Perhaps no families would leave the countryside to seek opportunities in the densely populated sub-urban. Perhaps no man will swallow his pride and mock his own self with an apple without actually knowing it.

02 july 2007
* This article was written following the Pintados-Kasadyaan Parade of 2007, the first city fiesta after the 2007 National Election.