I received a SMS this afternoon from an old friend. It surprised me more because i apparently didn't have her number in my phone book anymore. i swear by the name of my loud-mouthed neighbor but i do not recall deleting her entry. of course i had to save face lest i be accused of burning bridges.
I used to be fond of her most among the other members of the youth group in the church. maybe two years of willfully ignoring youth group invites' and practically choosing to drift away from the group slowly ensued such a happy exchange of SMS.
the short conversation through text messaging went like this:
K: hi bert! :)
B: Hi. hu is dis pls?
K: Kim ini. ;)
B: Kim C******? anu ka na? musta k na? hehe.
K: ok la.kaw musta?
B: ok la gyap. anuman ninong na ako? haha.
K: kalurong nim.dire.haha.. ako ninang na?
B: baog ako.hehe.
K: ako liwat. mag-angay daw la kita! hehe.
B: haha. amu ba? anu k na? musta na balit? anu nga hangin nag paabat k man?
K: waray la. na miss ko la ikaw.
B: saba daw ngada! kairinit ka man.
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once upon a time,(hehe) i played sweet music with this girl. it was one platonic boy-girl understanding that led to a more serious exchange of sweet nothingness. sadly, the story did not end up to our good advantage since most of our friends were not in favor of the idea. they thought we were better of as friends. she thought the same and i respected her for that. we remained good friends and we still exchange the same silly conversation when time permits and i still keep the little secrets she confided to me.
for some good reasons, i still wish i did not break the silence about how i felt for her then. i still wish she did not return the same sweet gesture to me then because it did not ensue into something romantic anyway. truly, there are just things better left unsaid and undone. tsk!tsk!
and then it struck me point blank. how would one react to the situation if somebody from his past returns to him down on bended knees and vulnerable saying she is not happy with her present love now, the one she chose over you and caused your life almost during the basted, and that because it dawned on her now that she happier and complete with you instead?
it will be a chaos of emotions, of course.
i wrote this Siday a few months back and i have been really eager posting it despite the not-so-good review of a trusted friend, who has actual learning about the principles of writing and reading the art of Siday.
Pananglitan
Magkita iton aton mga bayhon utro
Magkatapo iton mga siplat
Maghampang iton mga sugbong
Magbag-iray iton mga dughan.
Matood pa ba ako
kun magyakan ka
nga mabalik ka na
ha akon
pagbantay,
pagtimangno,
pagpalangga
Kay dire ka na malipayon ha iya?
